Voodlum Jarigeuan Tredrechet

*/Second day of exams is over and still two more tests to go-Math and Bio. I haven’t slept for merely two days and everytime I try to sleep, I body is can’t. My body is used to it, I suppose. My biologcal clock is ruined(the only routine that remains is the habit of waking up by 6am, no matter what time I sleep ). I don’t know what’s happening to me. I guess the “thing” has something to do with this, again. Last night, I just watched Deathnote instead of studying for Econ or Pinoy. I didn’t study for Chem because I don’t have notes in the first place and Redox is my expertise, so why waste time? But the tests today are relatively easy, thank God. Hahas.

Anyway, I still have some stuffs to do like the essay on The Modest Proposal and my write-up! Gaahd. I hate it. I mean, tomorrow is the deadline and only two people gave me am write-up out of the more or less 6 people who promised. Oh well./*

“Promises are meant to be broken”

There’s this guy named K-, and a girl named A-. K- met A- through his bestfriend. They were actually schoolmates before in gradeschool, they just don’t know each other during that time. Anyway, let’s make it fast-forward. K- fell in love with A-. He court her and A- actually fell in love too. Even though they rarely see each other, their love lasts, until school opening. K-’s phone was stolen and they lost their communication. When he got a new phone, he texted and even called her but she wouldn’t answer. Then, time pass by, he realized that maybe A- fell out of love or maybe, she has a new boyfriend or whatever. He heard rumors from her friends that she got some suitors and even a new boyfriend! K- was troubled, he wanted to break-up with her, but he doesn’t know how. Then he decided to just let it slip away- to “break-up” with her, silently, little by little. One day, he got a text message from his bestfriend, and thus the story begins.

“tol, nagtxt si a-!. nagulat ako adik”

 shoot. What should I do?! Crap.

“ha? waah. anu sabi?! di ko alam gagawin ko”

I really don’t know what to do. It burdens me.

“OMG! nasend ko skanya yung msg na para saio!.. naku patay, sorry. T_______T ayan kasi nagppanic taio! rarrrr”

This could be a sign of something.

“ha?! teka anu ba yung nasend mo?!”

This is actually a SIGN.

“tol ayan na si a-, makipagbreak ka na dali! sabihin mo na lahat ng gusto mong sabihin! tsaka magusap na kaio para malinaw na lahat at maayos na.. – o ayan yung nawrong send ko! tae…”

This is IT. No turning back.

“err. auko na muna siyang kausapin, ahm pakisabi na lang sakanya na kung nasan man siya ngaun, sana masaya na siya, sa piling ng iba, =(“

Maybe this is the end. I have to let her go, she fell out of love, I don’t know. I still love her, but what can I do? She’s happy with maybe some other guy out there. Gaahd. T__________T

“tol, sinabi ko na, di naman nagreply. kausapin mo kaya para matapos na.”

I can’t. She’s my strength. She’s my weakness. I don’t know why 4 months will go on waste. I love you A-. I don’t understand our situation.

*cellphone beeps*

“hello. musta ka na?”

SHOOT.

“ahm eto aus naman. kaw?”

Stop pretending K-. Talk to her!

“wala ka bang gustong sabihin sakin? wala ba tayong dapat pagusapan?”

I see. She already knows. The way she talks, I know, she really wants to.

“ahm. ewan. alam mo na eun di ba? T_________T”

I REALLY don’t know what to say.

“alam ko, makikipagbreak ka na. ok lang. i understand. salamt sa lahat. salamat kasi nakilala kita. salamat sa kasi naging masaya ako kahit 2 months lang tayo. ingatan mo lagi sarili mo. bye.”

OK LANG. Fuck. Maybe she really expect this to happen. Or maybe, she really WANTS this to happen, and we were doing the same thing-we were playing hide and seek.

…

But, I really love her. I don’t know what to say or do. But I’m sure it will burden me a lot, like now. Promises, promises. Fuck all those goddamn promises. I really want her. T_________T

“oh, and by the way, may bago na ako kapangalan siya ng kapatid ko, 1 week pa lang kami. cge bbye.”

I WANT TO DIE.

*to be continued